i want to…

write a great american novel. a really good one. full of perfect grammar. wonderfully, brilliantly perfect grammar.

be a grammar teacher. 8th grade? possibly.

learn how to sew.

shave apollo's soul patch off.

feel normal again.

feel useful again.

visit vancouver.

eat a dunford's chocolate doughnut and a diet coke.

become an anti-apostrophe-abuse guerilla.

make money again.

buy things again.

work for dave ramsey.

work anywhere.

be a florist. random, but true.

design my own font.

design a threadless shirt.

bring penny back. voodoo, anyone?

be a tap dancer.

bring springtime sooner.

own a house. good luck with that one.

have long hair again.

confess my undying love to shaun white. and his long hair.

laugh again. heartily.

meet oprah. or at least get on her favorite things show.

sell all my posessions.

run away in a westy.

and never come back.

be a good young women leader.

be a better wife.

pick up guitar again.

pick up violin again--with a vengeance.

buy a GTI with cash.

make dinner for once.

find the hidden homemaker within--i know it's in there somewhere.

move out of state. or just anywhere not by the name of utah.

craft with laura.

forget about taxes.

get a master's degree. in what? who knows. you tell me.

forget about eating disorders. good luck with that one, too.

help others forget about eating disorders. go to school to be an LCSW, perhaps?

never exercise again. sorry, body. i hate it.

be normal about exercise again.

get this editor job tomorrow.

time travel and repair regrets. get on that, scientists.

maybe just forget about regrets.

start over.

be happy again.

will i do it?

my restlessness hopes so.

my sanity is banking on it.

and my husband would certainly appreciate it.

i'll do my best. i promise.

wish me luck.